With Ellie gone.....

I'm surprised at how quiet Rocky is. He doesn't do much but sleep. I've been watching him and it's hard to tell if he is sad or not. He may be just getting old. I didn't realize how much they played together (and fought, Ellie is quite bossy). But Rock doesn't seem lonely, maybe even grateful for some uninterrupted sleep. I've been taking him on walks and giving him extra attention, but all he seems to want to do is sleep. There are some good points to having Ellie gone. It helps get rid of part of the chaos. Now whenever the kids are eating I don't have anxiety about the kids safety and have to put the dogs in their kennel. (Which was constant because my kids seem to be eating, all day!) But I also don't have someone to clean up the floor. (Rocky just sleeps when we eat, can you believe it? He doesn't even care!) Ellie also constantly, as in half a dozen times a day, would get into the trash and I'd have to clean up the tissue she left behind, or the mess on the bathroom floor. So that's one, no wait 6 less messes to clean up everyday. But, I kinda miss it too......Mostly though I'd take her back in a heartbeat. I still miss her. It is so strange and I know it sounds corny, but I feel an empty ache in my heart. Ugh. I really miss her.